MY TURN NOW

Yesterday, it was today
Today, it is tomorrow
Always waiting for the day
A miracle heals sorrow

I’m waiting at the window
The window of my desire
Desire to see sweet changes
And freedom from what I tire

Sunrise once again brings forth
Dark clouds on my horizon
But I must press on, press through
These weary clouds to Zion

Eyes see what I see for now
Ears hear only this moment
My heart beats on, through Your touch
Amazing grace, love has sent

I know as I know what’s known
Each step a struggle in time
Waiting to hear ‘my turn now’
And heaven’s bells sweetly chime

Oh! Jesus, yes, here I am
Standing in the healing line
Please let your sweet virtue flow
Oh! Please, please let it be mine

I said ‘here I am, it’s me’
You said, ‘I asked who We’d send
Not for you; but for others
Yes, for those who couldn’t fend’

‘I’m so sorry Lord, forgive
Forgive my oft selfish heart
But I’ve read so many times
Healing virtue You impart’

‘Yes, my child, I do impart
But why, why would I impart
What’s already imparted?
It flowed from My broken heart’

‘I loved you, love you, and child
Child you’re forgiven, and healed
Look to the cross, I’m risen
Victory is won, and sealed’

‘Thank you Lord, I see, send me
Not for me; but for others
Your love it gives to embrace
Hearts of sisters and brothers’

Yes, it’s today, has it changed?
My vision of what is true
Sun is up, the clouds have gone
They’re there; but I can see You

I’ve been looking for healing
I’ve been looking for escape
Failed to see it’s before me
Healing words on me, You drape

You arose, I was set free
Free from hopelessness, and fear
You arose, my Love, Jesus
Healing in Your wings, it’s near

I’ve had my turn, I receive
There’s no need to keep searching
I receive all You freely gave
Freely, continuously

Oh! Lord, hold me, don’t let go
Oh! Lord, please help me to see
(Remove all non-heaven shades)
The Truth, truth that makes me free

Your word is so beautiful
Your word is heaven’s delight
Your word brings new life, and love
I surrender, You ignite

Oh! Lord, I receive …

© 2018 Liana Wendy Howarth

“Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.” Isaiah 6:8 KJV

When Going Isn’t Easy

girl at night running
Well I asked You Lord, to send me
But I held on with all my might
To every thing that I knew was safe
I wasn’t about to give up without a fight

How did this happen Lord
When did this happen Lord
Who or what challenged the way?
I came to You, as a lamb bereaved
And cried out, please let me stay
Stay in Your presence, stay in Your life
Be preserved for eternity
You had given me this blessed right I knew
So what did I do; but turn in flight

And I didn’t see it coming
I thought all was good and free
But what I failed to realize
Was that the enemy was watching me
And quietly, subliminally
The world’s treasures led me astray
Oh! I was still worshipping, praying
And had You in my thoughts
Yes faithfully, each and every day

And then at the appointed time
Oh! Please Lord, not again
Your Word did confront, convict
My heart was laid wide open
All idols were burnt, withdrawn
Hopelessness departed and Love, You replaced all
My prayer, dear heavenly Father
May this finally be the time of Thy will
Finally be the time, that my feet stay in step with Thine

© 2015 Liana Wendy Howarth

“Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send,
and who will go for Us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.” Isaiah 6:8