MY TURN NOW

Yesterday, it was today
Today, it is tomorrow
Always waiting for the day
A miracle heals sorrow

I’m waiting at the window
The window of my desire
Desire to see sweet changes
And freedom from what I tire

Sunrise once again brings forth
Dark clouds on my horizon
But I must press on, press through
These weary clouds to Zion

Eyes see what I see for now
Ears hear only this moment
My heart beats on, through Your touch
Amazing grace, love has sent

I know as I know what’s known
Each step a struggle in time
Waiting to hear ‘my turn now’
And heaven’s bells sweetly chime

Oh! Jesus, yes, here I am
Standing in the healing line
Please let your sweet virtue flow
Oh! Please, please let it be mine

I said ‘here I am, it’s me’
You said, ‘I asked who We’d send
Not for you; but for others
Yes, for those who couldn’t fend’

‘I’m so sorry Lord, forgive
Forgive my oft selfish heart
But I’ve read so many times
Healing virtue You impart’

‘Yes, my child, I do impart
But why, why would I impart
What’s already imparted?
It flowed from My broken heart’

‘I loved you, love you, and child
Child you’re forgiven, and healed
Look to the cross, I’m risen
Victory is won, and sealed’

‘Thank you Lord, I see, send me
Not for me; but for others
Your love it gives to embrace
Hearts of sisters and brothers’

Yes, it’s today, has it changed?
My vision of what is true
Sun is up, the clouds have gone
They’re there; but I can see You

I’ve been looking for healing
I’ve been looking for escape
Failed to see it’s before me
Healing words on me, You drape

You arose, I was set free
Free from hopelessness, and fear
You arose, my Love, Jesus
Healing in Your wings, it’s near

I’ve had my turn, I receive
There’s no need to keep searching
I receive all You freely gave
Freely, continuously

Oh! Lord, hold me, don’t let go
Oh! Lord, please help me to see
(Remove all non-heaven shades)
The Truth, truth that makes me free

Your word is so beautiful
Your word is heaven’s delight
Your word brings new life, and love
I surrender, You ignite

Oh! Lord, I receive …

© 2018 – present Liana Wendy Howarth

“Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.” Isaiah 6:8 KJV

WHEN A HEART HASN’T FULLY SURRENDERED (Song Lyrics)

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There are parts of my heart struggling to be free
Forgive me Father, I’ve been too blind to see
That Your salvation included all, all, all
All I’d ever need when I answered Your call

Oh! Why is it hard, so hard to surrender
I’m going to spend life with You forever
Surrender all of my heart to You, my Lord
Please release me from every worldly cord

Chorus
This heart
A heart
Not fully surrendered
This heart
A heart
Still longing
Still empty
Crying within
Wanting only to surrender

Something’s amiss, because You’ve given it all
There’s something I missed, because You’ve done it all
Jesus, You’re seated on the right hand of Love
‘Tis compassion’s heart interceding above

Oh! Eyes, turn to the Lord, stop looking at self
You’re not some random bear alone on a shelf
Know with understanding, and keep your mind fresh
Remembering the battle’s spirit not flesh

Chorus
This heart
A heart
Not fully surrendered
This heart
A heart
Still longing
Still empty
Crying within
Wanting only to surrender

Then I see scenes of old, hard yes; but simple
No distractions, no screens making life brittle
New lives birthing forth into glorious day
On home ground once lived upon, decades away

I’m told not to look back, keep hands on the plough
I’ve healed you He said, live with Me in the now
The memories are yours, beauty and sorrow
But My beauty will always fill tomorrow

Chorus
This heart
A heart
Not fully surrendered
This heart
A heart
Still longing
Still empty
Crying within
Wanting only to surrender

This heart
A heart
Surrendering
This heart
A heart
Receiving
Filling
Tears captured
Only a matter of time

Because I am loved
I am loved
I am loved

© 2021 Liana Wendy Howarth

A BROKEN WING MELODY

 

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How will this broken wing ever fly
If I just give up, don’t even try
I cry out, Father, please mend my wing
I’ll soar on high, and my heart will sing

Ah! This broken wing has me downcast
My eyes wander on circumstance past
Must lift my head, sad eyes heavenward
To see Jesus, as You said I would

It feels so very bound with life’s care
And all who see me, wander, and stare
For I’m dragging lifeless melodies
This stone cold heart, only Father sees

But my wing isn’t really broken
And no-one sees what I have spoken
’Tis only a mind, believing lies
When a heart, all out, it tries and tries

How will this broken wing ever fly
If I just give up, don’t even try
I cry out, Father, please mend my wing
I’ll soar on high, and my heart will sing

I do want to be so mended though
So off to the prayer closet I go
Father, forgive me my brokenness
I will, and think nothing of you less

I see you floundering upon earth
I see your heart struggles to find worth
You are trying to fly on old wings
You have yet to receive what love brings

I’m going to open your heart now
Just believe in Me, and don’t ask how
Going to open those pretty eyes
Open closed off ears, and cast out lies

The prison door no more holds captive
Look to Me, my child, look and you’ll live
Reach forth, spread both wings, and learn to fly
Beat those new wings, freedom’s in the sky

Yes, this broken wing is healed to fly
I didn’t give up, I daily try
I cried out, Father, please mend my wing
He did, I soar, my heart can now sing

Oh! He healed this broken wing of mine
Healed it eternal, so I can shine
Fly, and scatter precious seeds on high
Comfort the suffering, and tears dry

© 2018 Liana Wendy Howarth

Today I’m Free

Today I'm Free
Oh, He’s broken the curse of sickness
Upon my life this day
Oh yes, He’d already done it at the Cross
But I always had my say

As each morning I awoke
And symptoms rose ugly head
Tried to set the mood for the day
I’d lie there and I’d dread

Dread the thought of another day
Living with the onslaught of pain
Pain in every part of me
So many symptoms trying my life, to drain

But the power of the Cross has broken through
And reality by faith has won
‘cause Jesus bore my sickness
Jesus, God’s only begotten Son

Oh yes, by feeling, nothing’s changed
Not as yet, as I write these words
But when the truth is buried deep within
New life will sing like nature’s birds

And gone will be the ringing
Gone will be weariness
Gone will be anxiety
And heartbeats untuned more or less

Gone will be the dizziness
Gone will be the brain-numbing fog
Gone will be the blurry vision
Praise God, I will no longer falter; but jog

Oh the power of the Cross today
And everyday henceforth
Has healed this weary mind-numbing life
For the truth of the power’s broken forth

Amen … thank you Jesus

© 2014 Liana Wendy Howarth