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My Heart, It Goes Awandering

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I seem to have lost a little part of me
The part which hears His small, still voice
So I searched across oceans wide
In mountain depths, I have no choice

I seem to have lost a little part of me
The pool from which sweet joy, it flows
My heart, it goes awandering
Where it goes, only the Lord knows

I seem to have lost a little part of me
Where love fills me to completeness
I’ve turned my back on all that’s safe
Traded His truth for emptiness

I seem to have lost a little part of me
Where teardrops beat a path to fill
Where silence sounds so deafening
Where help seems so absent and still

I seem to have lost a little part of me
Maybe this trial has an ending
In times of impending defeat
’Tis only He, my heart mending

I seem to have found that vital part of me
That part that beats the tune of love
The only reason I found it
Letting go, it fell from above

© 2017 Liana Wendy Howarth

Challenge Me

Challenge Me

Challenge me, dear Lord, to never let You go
Challenge me, dear Lord, my love to always show
When all and everything around me abandons my need and is lost
Draw me dearest Father, nearer to Thee, at all cost

For You paid an excruciating price for me
When Your Son hung so majestically upon that precious tree
Majestic in Your power and in eternal aim
For me to live, He endured such unimaginable pain

Challenge and convict my oft backsliding heart
So that nothing in this world will ever tear us apart
And together eternally, we shall always be
Send Your warmth to melt, mend, to reshape me

Father, please challenge, challenge me

© 2012 – present Liana Wendy Howarth

Keep Me in Thy Presence Lord

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Keep me in Thy presence Lord
For there’s no other way
For Thy sweet fullness of joy
To fill me this fine day

Keep me in Thy presence Lord
Or else I’ll go astray
Wander off Thy Word lit path
End up losing my way

Keep me in Thy presence Lord
To act and think and say
All that Your Word commands me
And at Jesus’ feet lay

Keep me in Thy presence Lord
And may I always stay
In the hands of the Potter
Surrendered as Thy clay

Keep me in Thy presence Lord
Each day Lord, this I pray
For life has been bought for me
There’s nothing left to pay

© 2016 Liana Wendy Howarth

I’M READY FOR A MAKEOVER (Song Lyrics)

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Chorus
So I’m ready for a makeover, Lord
The lining of my heart is pretty tired
Please embroider Your word upon its wall
And may faith, hope and love be rewired

Spending too much time away from You
With too many empty thoughts
Filling my time with things of no worth
Now my life is out of sorts

The carpet of my long wanderings
Have worn feeble footsteps in
Took me places where I shouldn’t go
And right back into the arms of sin

Chorus
So I’m ready for a makeover, Lord
The lining of my heart is pretty tired
Please embroider Your word upon its wall
And may faith, hope and love be rewired

The old curtains that have tried to hide
Anything wrong in Your eyes
Things that I have tried to justify
Things that just cover up lies

The paintings despicting long lost scenes
Of life daily fleeting by
Show my emotions long held captive
On display, hung out to dry

Chorus
So I’m ready for a makeover, Lord
The lining of my heart is pretty tired
Please embroider Your word upon its wall
And may faith, hope and love be rewired

The couch once full of so much comfort
Floral hues everywhere
Your word rejoiced and filling each need
Now my poor mind is threadbare

Bridge
Recover me
Recover me
Recover me with Your love
Recover me with Your promises
Recover me with Love

Chorus
I thank You Lord, You’ve now made me over
My whole heart, it’s replastered and new
You embroidered Yourself upon its wall
And faith, hope and love are embraced, it’s true

© 2015 Liana Wendy Howarth

Story of the Straying Lamb … Author Unknown

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The Shepherd loved His little lamb,
And gave it tender care…
And followed it with loving eyes
As it wandered here and there.

And as He sat by His grazing flock
Who so meekly His voice obeyed
He pondered sadly His little lamb
As again and again it strayed.

The little lamb had a loving heart,
And adored His Shepherd, true…
But would turn aside and seek his own way
As lambs will so often do.

With His gentle voice the Shepherd called,
To His loved and straying lamb,
“Come back, little one, for you are not safe
Unless you are where I am.”

But still the lamb would soon forget
And unthinkingly wander away,
And not really noticing what he did,
From the Shepherd’s side would stray.

Until one day, the Shepherd kind
Took His rod in His gentle hand,
And what He then did seemed so cruel
That the lamb could not understand.

For with one sharp and well-aimed blow
Down the rod so swiftly came
That it broke the leg of the little lamb
And left it crippled, and lame.

Then the little lamb, with a cry of pain,
Fell down upon his knees…
And looked up at his Shepherd, as though to say,
“Won’t you explain this, please?”

Then he saw the love in the Shepherd’s eyes
As the tears ran down His face,
As He tenderly set the broken bone,
And bound it back in it’s place.

Now he was utterly helpless,
He could not even stand!
He must trust himself completely
To his Shepherd’s loving hand.

Then day by day, ’till the lamb was healed
From the flock he was kept apart…
And carried about in the Shepherd’s arms,
And cradled near to His heart.

And the Shepherd would whisper gentle words
Into his now listening ear…
Thus he heard sweet words of love
That the other sheep could not hear.

He felt the warmth of the Shepherd’s arms
And the beat of His faithful heart…
Until it came a blessing to seem,
By his weakness to be set apart.

Every need of the little lamb
By his Shepherd so fully was met
That through his brokenness he learned
What he never again would forget.

And as the broken bone was healed,
And once more became whole and strong…
Wherever the Shepherd’s path would lead,
The lamb would follow along.

Thus at the Shepherd’s side he walked
So closely, day by day,
For once a lamb has a broken leg
It will never again go astray.

For the cords of love had bound it so
In its hour of weakness and need…
That it had no desire to wander away,
When once again it was freed.

Could it be you are broken today,
And you cannot understand
The painful blow of the Shepherd’s rod
Nor believe it came from His hand?

He only seeks, by this painful thing,
For a time to call you apart…
To cradle you close in His loving arms,
And draw you near to His heart.

So look up into your Shepherd’s eyes,
And earnestly seek His face…
And prove in the hour of your weakness and need
The sufficiency of His grace.

For as you are borne in His loving arms,
And carried there, day by day…
He will bind you so close with the cords of His love
That never again will you stray

Author Unknown

(If the owner of this beautiful poem is known, please let me know and I will either give credit or remove it as requested)

When Going Isn’t Easy

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Well I asked You Lord, to send me
But I held on with all my might
To every thing that I knew was safe
I wasn’t about to give up without a fight

How did this happen Lord
When did this happen Lord
Who or what challenged the way?
I came to You, as a lamb bereaved
And cried out, please let me stay
Stay in Your presence, stay in Your life
Be preserved for eternity
You had given me this blessed right I knew
So what did I do; but turn in flight

And I didn’t see it coming
I thought all was good and free
But what I failed to realize
Was that the enemy was watching me
And quietly, subliminally
The world’s treasures led me astray
Oh! I was still worshipping, praying
And had You in my thoughts
Yes faithfully, each and every day

And then at the appointed time
Oh! Please Lord, not again
Your Word did confront, convict
My heart was laid wide open
All idols were burnt, withdrawn
Hopelessness departed and Love, You replaced all
My prayer, dear heavenly Father
May this finally be the time of Thy will
Finally be the time, that my feet stay in step with Thine

© 2015 Liana Wendy Howarth

“Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send,
and who will go for Us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.” Isaiah 6:8

O OPEN MY EYES AND CAUSE ME TO SEE (A Song of Prayer)

O OPEN MY EYES AND CAUSE ME TO SEE

Chorus
O open my eyes and cause me to see
All that You, my Saviour, have suffered for me
Place the desire within this oft dying heart
To follow Your lead, my Shepherd
And forever by found
Forever be found
Forever be found in Heaven’s flock with Thee

Lord, please remove the shades from me
That have fallen upon my eyes
Blocking out Love’s touch from me
Forgive me, forgive me
‘Cause I’ve been captive to darkness’ lies
And that I’ve grown distant, I can’t disguise

Chorus
O open my eyes and cause me to see
All that You, my Saviour, have suffered for me
Place the desire within this oft dying heart
To follow Your lead, my Shepherd
And forever by found
Forever by found
Forever be found, in Heaven’s flock with Thee

I want to see Your glory Lord
Like the golden children of God gone by
Trust in Your unfathomable wisdom
Trust and not question why

I want to feel Your comfort Lord
Like comfort only the comforted know
Trust in Your Almighty Love and Presence
Trust through trials of woe

I want to hear Your word Lord
Like healing waters silently flowing
Trust in Your unwavering promises
Trust where I am going

Chorus
O open my eyes and cause me to see
All that You, my Saviour, have suffered for me
Place the desire within this oft dying heart
To follow Your lead, my Shepherd
And forever by found
Forever be found
Forever be found, in Heaven’s flock with Thee

O forever by found
Forever be found
Forever be found, in Heaven’s flock with Thee

© 2014 Liana Wendy Howarth

I’ve Been in the Desert

I've Been in the Desert

I’ve been in the desert
Where the sun refused to shine
The night went on forever
Till my life was no longer mine

The way before me, wasteland
The way behind, tragedy
My way, now lost and empty
My way, no longer what I need

This void that laughs around me
One more step and I’ll stumble in
‘Cause I’ve no longer searched for
The One who loves and guideth me

© 2014 Liana Wendy Howarth

(Please note … this poem is a mixture of past and present tense purposely)

SOMETIMES WE WILL FALL (A Song of Forgiveness and Restoration)

SOMETIMES WE WILL FALL

When our hearts are full of joy
And life is full of peace
When friends are near
And family close
And nothing is to fear
Remember still to bow the head
Remember our wondrous God
‘Cause rain will come
And storms will shatter
And sometimes we will fall

Chorus
But He sends sweet, golden teardrops
Upon the falling hearts
His treasure mends the brokenness
Every tear a gift of His Love

Yes, sometimes we will fall
Even though Jesus is our All
Nothing will ever tear us apart
Still we fall, we fall, we fall
But He picks us up
Then we lift Him up
Still He falls, He falls, He falls
‘Cause He loves us so
And will never let go
He falls right back into our waiting heart

‘Cause He loves us so
And will never let go
He falls right back
Into our waiting heart

Chorus
Oh! He sent sweet, golden teardrops
Upon the now uplifted hearts
His treasure has mended the brokenness
Every tear a gift of His Love

© 2014 Liana Wendy Howarth

Lost Prayer

Lost PrayerWhen prayer has gone amissing
And you don’t know what to say
When circumstances threaten
To block or mar your way
It may be that you are unwell
It may be that you’ve wandered
It may be influence from many others
Or it may be that your voice has floundered
Words they seem to have disappeared
And lost their way from a confused heart
You know you want to talk to Father
But finding them is tearing you apart
You know He’s there and waiting
Waiting for your pitiful cry
Waiting to place His arms around you
But the silence has you wondering why
Oh! Lord Jesus please break the chains
From off this quivering thought
And release my heart’s desire to see You
Release me Lord into Your presence
… so this dry prayer
Will flourish as the springtime
Fragrance lifted to You on high
Fragrance lifted, others gifted
And prayer released … so this urgency is never for nought

© 2013 Liana Wendy Howarth