‘Surrender’ is my ‘focus’ word this year … Oh how I need the Lord … so hard to surrender to being surrendered. To surrender to surrendering. Only the One who surrendered to the agony of the Cross can achieve this in my life.
I cannot believe that after all these years I have only just realized that the word ‘surrender’ does not appear in the KJV or many other versions. There is so much talk of surrendering our lives to the Lord … why isn’t it in some versions?
I welcome any thoughts or knowledge … any wisdom regarding this. Thank you.
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Peter began to say to Him, ’See, we have left all and followed You’ —Mark 10:28
Our Lord replies to this statement of Peter by saying that this surrender is “for My sake and the gospel’s” (10:29). It was not for the purpose of what the disciples themselves would get out of it. Beware of surrender that is motivated by personal benefits that may result. For example, “I’m going to give myself to God because I want to be delivered from sin, because I want to be made holy.” Being delivered from sin and being made holy are the result of being right with God, but surrender resulting from this kind of thinking is certainly not the true nature of Christianity. Our motive for surrender should not be for any personal gain at all. We have become so self-centered that we go to God only for something from Him, and not for God Himself. It is like saying, “No, Lord, I don’t want you; I want myself. But I do want You to clean me and fill me with Your Holy Spirit. I want to be on display in Your showcase so I can say, ’This is what God has done for me.’ ” Gaining heaven, being delivered from sin, and being made useful to God are things that should never even be a consideration in real surrender. Genuine total surrender is a personal sovereign preference for Jesus Christ Himself.
Where does Jesus Christ figure in when we have a concern about our natural relationships? Most of us will desert Him with this excuse—”Yes, Lord, I heard you call me, but my family needs me and I have my own interests. I just can’t go any further” (see Luke 9:57-62). “Then,” Jesus says, “you ’cannot be My disciple’ ” (see Luke 14:26-33).
True surrender will always go beyond natural devotion. If we will only give up, God will surrender Himself to embrace all those around us and will meet their needs, which were created by our surrender. Beware of stopping anywhere short of total surrender to God. Most of us have only a vision of what this really means, but have never truly experienced it.
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Below is one of my early poems … written 23/06/2002
Why is it
That the stream is flowing
In my body
But I know I’m travelling
The wrong way?
Like the salmon
I push on
In the other direction
And even though
The salmon’s path
I guess I think
I’m travelling my path
On my terms
When I want to
And I believed
That it didn’t matter which way
As long as I travelled one way
Along my chosen path
Except my path is fraught with turmoil
And God’s path is mixed with blessings.
Which way should I choose?
I must choose the right way
……. God’s way
And let Him guide my path His way.
Let me surrender like that salmon
And flow in peace, the right way
The only way
Swimming in God’s river of love.
© 2002/2013 Liana Wendy Howarth